Oooh wee...
Talk about disappointment. I didn't do so well on my third Chemistry exam and for all the studying that I thought I did, I'm pretty disappointed about the results. It's like, if I didn't study that hard, then maybe I would've done better. It's really a wierd way to think about it but whatever. I think part of the reason I didn't do so well was also because I was literally functioning on three hours of sleep and a 15 minute nap. But anyways...

I was looking around at the majors at some of my friends who are doing Pre-Medicine. A lot of them are majoring in things like Political Science, Culture and Society (whatever that is) and other things. Who's to say that I can't major in those things too and for some reason, I really feel like I might even be happier being in those majors simply because they seem like things that I would like to do. I have no idea. So far, my mind is totally and completely blank as to what kind of major I'm going to pursue or I plan on pursuing.

I need to seriously look at those vocational tests. I mean, I took them for a reason right and it's only right that I make good use of them. They have to be used for something and its original purpose was to help me find a major that I would fit my personality and my interests as well as find a major in which I would get the most satisfaction. I hate coming to class feeling like an idiot because I don't understand things or it's not a subject that I'm really interested in . I just wish there was some kind of motivation to get me going to class, for me to have a reason to really want to do well in school and study, regardless of everything else. Right now, all I can think about is sleep and going out. For once, I want to be truly truly bored with summer and not have any plans to the point where I just have nothing to do.

Needless to say, I feel stressed.

To take a break from all this stress and to not think about that shitty ass job of a test I had, I went with a couple friends and Henry to go see Superman Returns on opening night. It was kind of...a disappointment but the movie did have its good points. Brandon Routh did an excellent job portraying Superman and Clark Kent and he looked so adorably sexy with his glasses on! The story was just kind of long but in the end, it was an okay movie: something good to watch to take your mind of everything and definitely something fun to watch on opening night.

On to another topic, jobs. I need to find another job. Hollister Co. just isn't cutting it in terms of paychecks and hours. I haven't worked since maybe April. I need to find another job. I applied to this place called Cram Crew where you basically help kids with their SAT's, ACT's, AP testing, whatever whatever. However, the guy who's doing a background check couldn't find anything on me as if I had neve existed. So, he needs a copy of my social security card and my drivers license so I definitely need to do that. The pay is around $20-$30 per hour and the hours are around 15-20 hours a week. That's around $600 if I get the maximum amount of pay and hours. And that, my friends, is not shabby at all. I definitely need the money to say the least.

What I might end up doing is put $400 into college tuition to try to help my mom out with payments and whatnot. We'll see how the Fall semeseter goes.

Today we also have Rush events for aKDPhi and we're tabling at the UC. I'm really hoping to rush some good girls this year and have a big Upsilon class. I'm also hoping to really get a badass little for Mungkornpanich Family! Since me and Pegon both didn't have littles last semester, that means we BOTH get littles this semester. Me, Pegon, Emmeline and Kristty all get littles this semester and then after us is Tau Class. We'll see how it goes and I'll keep my eye open for some good girls.

Well...I've spent my time updating, I'm super hungry, and I'm just beginning to crave IHOP. I'm going to hit the books and start studying again.

See you around...

I'm really, really exhausted. Needless to say, I've been incredibly busy studying for my last chemistry test and my final this Friday, taking care of KDPhi business, managing spending time with my family, friends, and boyfriend, a potential job opportunity, and spending time alone, by myself. As much as I love to be around people, I just need some alone time sometimes. But it's all good.

During the 5 or 6 days that I have in between the end of Summer I and the beginning of Summer IV, I'm hoping to accomplish more job and spending time with the family, friends, and lover boy. I'm getting better and better at this whole time-management thing and this whole self- discipline thing also. Feeling better as I get more and more things accomplished and hopefully this feeling stays for a good while. Hopefully I get good enough grades to keep my GPA above a 2.0 and hopefully somehow manage to get it over a 3.0.

I know I probably could have done better during Summer I but the fact that I missed a whole week of school simply because I was so tired definitely contributed to the fact that I probably didn't go as many times as I should have gone, which is all the days, simply because I didn't want to. Oh well, we'll see. For Summer IV, I plan on going to every single class, regardless of how "tired" I am and whatnot. I know that if I do the quizzes within the two or three days that they are first posted on WebCT, I won't be up late at night trying to scramble to make 12 out of 12 on impossible quizzes.

But anyways, I guess that's all that I have to update.

I'm really exhausted. Maybe I'm just mentally exhausted, whatever. I am having the hardest time figuring out what major I plan on pursuing. I know for a fact that I feel like the safe road is going to be pursuing a bachelor of science in biology but if I'm really suited more towards a bachelor of science in human nutrition and food science, then what makes it so hard to just...switch?

I think the most definite factor in my decision is my parents. I can't lie, I want them to be proud of my decision. I don't want to go into family gatherings and have them scoff and laugh at what I decided to do. In my mom's head, you can't get into medical school if you don't have a degree in biology. And maybe she's really instilled that into my head.

But I guess, for the Fall 2006 semester, we'll see just how everything goes. I'm taking one class in Nutrition and if I like it, then I guess we'll go ahead and major in it. I just want to be someone that stands out to the admissions committee in medical school. Everyone is going to be a biology major or a science major.

So what's going to make me stick out then? 

So I feel like I got a lot of stuff accomplished today and that makes me feel good. I took this test called the Myers-Briggs Type Indicator and found out that good ol' Joanne is a ENFJ which stands for extrovert, intuitive, feeling, judging. Cool no?

It basically tells me about my personality and what careers most fit my personality and the career that I would most likely get the most satisfaction out of. Physician wasn't technically on there but I still want to be one. But I think I've finally decided that Human Nutrition and Foods is the major in which I'll probably do my best. Dietician was actually on both tests that I took so it makes me feel really good about switching majors but anyways, we'll see how that whole thing goes in the future. I still have to have this major talk with my parents and we'll see how that goes too.

I am absolutely love this song by Rihanna, Unfaithful. No, it has no relation to anything happening in my life currently but I just like the beat and the piano part in it. I guess that's the update for today.

Time for more studying...

First things first, Happy Birthday Dawnie!!

Yesterday we celebrated Dawn's birthday at Prego and it was hella expensive. Super fun, but expensive for sure! I loved spending time with my old friends and seeing old people and it was a lot of fun eating cake with them and just having fun!

Also, I saw the movie Click yesterday featuring Adam Sandler and Kate Beckinsale. I thought it was a really good movie! And Henry decided that our "song" would be "Linger" by The Cranberries. It was a good movie. It basically told you not to fast forward through life and to live it with everything that you got. Adam Sandler played this guy named Michael and basically he was this big-shot architect who let his job get in the way of his family. He basically got to learn that it wasn't the job that mattered but family. And I really liked the movie!

Also yesterday, I finally got to see Henry after his whole week away at Austin. I made an agreement with him not to see him throughout the week but at least get Friday's with him. Excited because I really feel like it's going to help me study more and get my priorities in the right direction.

I have to go to school to study and study and study some more. It's really crazy the amount of studying that I'm doing but it's all in the name of doing well in school and to do well in my future. I am absolutely unsure of what I want to do anymore in terms of major. Pre-medicine? Pre-law? Pre-business? Not sure anymore.

Sometimes I just want someone to decide for me so I don't have to make the decision and I don't have to go through the trouble of trying to figure out what the "right thing to do" is and whatnot.

Make the decision for me. I'll do the work to achieve that decision.